“GOD ALWAYS WITH US”
Before I embarked on my journey with the Jesuits, the idea of “Companhia de Jesus” was unfamiliar to me. It sounded more like a construction company than one of the Religious Orders founded by St. Ignatius of Loyola. However, through a vocation promotion program, my perspective had changed.
The fundamental reason for my decision to join the Jesuit Candidacy Program was a deep admiration for the life of St. Ignatius, presented to me by Fr. Robert M. Boholst, SJ. The phrase “Sinners yet Called” struck a chord within me, reshaping my understanding of religious life. Despite childhood dreams of serving God, I had once felt unworthy due to my perceived shortcomings and upbringing in a culturally rich, yet spiritually modest, family.
The journey of formation has been transformative, challenging me to confront my personal desires and prejudices. Early mornings and communal living, where each member brings unique backgrounds and strengths, have taught me invaluable lessons in acceptance and cooperation. This communal life has revealed to me where my true peace and joy reside—rooted in serving the Lord alongside my brothers.
Through the trials and tribulations of formation, I discovered a profound inner peace and joy that affirmed my vocation. Despite the challenges, this peace has sustained me, reminding me that God’s providence guides me through every difficulty. It has shifted my perspective on faith itself—from feeling distant and unworthy to embracing God’s unconditional love and presence in my life.
One touching experience that solidified my trust in God’s providence was a pilgrimage from Manresa Novitiate Dili-Liquiça spelling-Maliana-Ermera and return to Manresa. Initially uncertain of surviving nine days with only extra clothes, my journey was a testament to faith surpassing human doubt. At every turn, strangers welcomed us with open arms, offered food, shelter, and even emotional support.
Their kindness moved me deeply, reinforcing my belief in God’s presence in every facet of life as a young Jesuit. These moments instilled in me a profound trust in divine providence, emphasizing that living God’s will isn’t about capability but about sincere intent. Such encounters fill me with hope for the future of the Jesuit mission in Timor, envisioning a community where Christianity isn’t merely professed but lived out daily. This journey has strengthened my resolve to guide others towards embracing their true Christian identity, fostering a future where faith and action are seamlessly intertwined.
By: Sch. Eugenio Maia Da Cruz, SJ (Jesuits Junior)