Time truly flies. February is always a busy month for us Arrupens, especially for the fourth-years. It is a time of final papers, examinations, and preparing to return to our home Provinces. We also celebrate the Lunar New Year, attend individual meetings, and gather for a community conversation with Fr. Jun Viray, SJ, President of JCAP. For the fourth year, February also brings the Ad Gradum or comprehensive examinations, an important step as we complete our theological studies.
As I prepare to leave for my next mission, it is difficult to believe that four and a half years have already passed since I first arrived at Arrupe International Residence to study at the Loyola School of Theology. What once felt like the beginning of a long journey now seems like it happened only yesterday. These years have quietly shaped me in ways I did not fully see at the beginning.
Looking back, my heart is filled with gratitude.
First, I thank God, who has faithfully guided me throughout this journey. In moments of clarity and confusion, strength and weakness, He has remained present. His grace has sustained me in my studies, my prayer, my community life, and even in my struggles. Looking back, I can see that God has always been leading me, step by step.
I am also deeply grateful to my formators and professors, past and present, who have accompanied me with patience and wisdom. Their guidance has strengthened not only my academic formation but also my spiritual life. They encouraged me to think deeply, pray sincerely, and discern carefully. More importantly, their lives have borne quiet witness to their commitment to the Church and to the mission of the Society of Jesus.
My Jesuit companions in Arrupe have also been a great gift. Community life is not always easy, but it is in daily living that we discover the beauty of fraternity. Through shared meals, simple conversations, liturgies, laughter, and even moments of tension, we have grown together. Coming from different cultures and backgrounds, we are united by a common call to serve Christ. Their friendship and support have enriched my formation in ways I will always remember.
These years have formed me not only intellectually but also spiritually and personally. Formation is not only about learning ideas or gaining knowledge; it is a journey of becoming more human, more self-aware, and more available for God’s mission. Along the way, I have learned to face my limitations, grow in maturity, and deepen my trust in Christ.
As I count the days before my departure, I carry with me two virtues that have marked my formation: humility and courage.
Humility reminds me that I am only a servant. The mission does not belong to me; it belongs to Christ. I am sent not because I am capable, but because God is faithful.
Courage invites me to move forward in trust. The future is unknown, but God always goes before us. Grounded in prayer, I entrust myself to His will and to the mission that awaits.
Time flies, but gratitude remains. With humility and courage, I am ready to be sent AMDG.
Written by: Dc. Marcos Apu, SJ