Looking back on the two months since we completed our Juniorate formation, I feel truly grateful for the opportunity now to study Philosophy. Entering this new stage of my studies, has brought both excitement and challenges because Philosophy is very different from other subjects I have studied before. It uses many technical terms and abstract ideas, so I often need to stop and look up unfamiliar words. Sometimes, I also have to read the same text several times before I can understand what the author is trying to say. Although this can be difficult, I am slowly learning to be patient with myself and to appreciate the process of learning.
Sometimes, I feel that I am slower than others, and I begin to ask myself whether I am capable enough? However, I am gradually learning that studying Philosophy is not a race. Instead, I need to take my time, ask questions, and reflect carefully on what I read. These difficulties are also helping me to grow in humility, patience, discipline, and perseverance. They also remind me that learning takes time, that I am not expected to understand everything immediately, and that I need to keep making an effort and stay open to learning.
At the same time, I have also noticed that my studies become more meaningful when I am able to connect them with my apostolate in the service to others. I believe that God has given me the gift of intellect to help me understand better the world and the people around me. Through my apostolate, I meet different individuals, listen to their experiences, and learn about their struggles and hopes. As a result, what I study in the classroom helps me gain a deeper understanding of their lives. In turn, my experiences in the apostolate allow me to view Philosophy not just as a theoretical subject, but as something closely tied to real life. This connection enables me to approach others with greater understanding, respect, and compassion.
Therefore, I want to continue my studies with humility, patience, and an open heart. I am learning not to pursue education solely to achieve good grades, but rather to allow my studies to shape me and help me grow in the love and wisdom of God. I recognize that I have limitations, but I trust that with patience, discipline, and perseverance, I can continue to grow gradually.
Moreover, studying Philosophy is not just about acquiring knowledge. It is also a crucial part of my journey of personal formation and preparation for mission. It challenges me to think more deeply, seek the truth, and gain a clearer understanding of myself, others, and the world around me. Ultimately, I hope that the knowledge I gain will not reside only in my mind but will also influence my heart and the way I live. Hence, the study of Philosophy helps me become wiser, more compassionate, and more rooted in God, so that what I have learned will not only serve the Church and others but also help me become someone who can recognize and share God’s truth, love, and wisdom in the mission entrusted to me.
Written by Sch. Danilo Soares, SJ