After completing one year of juniorate and two years of philosophical studies, I look back at this time with a heart full of gratitude. These three years have been marked by both blessings and challenges, each shaping me in ways I continue to discover. Indeed, there are countless blessings to be remembered and cherished.
One of the greatest graces I have received is the gift of community and companionship at Loyola House of Studies. I am reminded of the words of Maurice Merleau-Ponty: “Esse est co-esse”—to be is to be with others. No one can truly live in isolation; we exist in relationship. We are not mere objects standing alone, but living subjects, embodied persons connected through desires, feelings, and emotions with others.
I recognize that I could not have accomplished my studies without the support and encouragement of my community. This grace of belonging has been essential to my journey. The community has been my strongest support system. I am deeply grateful to my formators, teachers, brothers, benefactors and the East Timor Region who have played vital roles in my growth.
Even the simplest moments, conversations during meals, shared laughter, and quiet presence, have become meaningful opportunities for learning. Sitting with the fathers and brothers has been a particular blessing, as I have gained wisdom from their life experiences and missionary journeys. At times, being with the same people every day can feel monotonous, yet these moments have taught me to let go of my ego and to deepen genuine friendships.
I have come to realize that self-discovery does not happen in isolation. Living in a multicultural community has helped me understand myself more deeply. It has allowed me to grow in maturity and openness to others. I believe that formation begins within, but it is through life with others that this formation truly unfolds.
Another great blessing has been the presence of good and dedicated people in my academic journey. I could not have persevered without the accompaniment of my teachers and my batchmate. They have generously offered their time, knowledge, and wisdom, opening before me many paths for learning and growth. I am truly fortunate to have encountered such excellent mentors who have enriched both my understanding and my experience.
Studying philosophy has not been easy. At times, it has been difficult and even confusing. Yet, it has also given me a deeper sense of direction. Philosophy does not aim to provide all the answers; rather, it invites me to seek meaning in everything. It begins with questions and wonder. It does not always offer solutions, but it nurtures a deeper understanding of what I believe, what I know, and what I hope for. Looking back, I see that these years have not only formed my intellect but also my heart. For this, I remain profoundly grateful. As I head back home to start my new mission,and knowing that I will not work and live alone, but instead will work and live with others, I pray for the grace of intellectual humility.
AMDG.
Written by: Sch. Trosilio de Jesus, SJ